Back to Basics: To live within my core values

My name is Elinor and I am starting this blog to document my 101lb weight loss journey. I have always felt uncomfortable in my skin because I know that I am not in the state that I was made to be in. I am embarrassed by my size and have never felt able to indulge my ‘girly’ side because I am unhappy with how I look.

When I started my first year of university I wrote down my core values. Among these was one that stated, ‘I resolve to get help if I consistently fail on one of my core values’. Predictably (which is probably one of the reasons that it happens so much), I have consistently failed on all of them and that one in particular!

So, four and a half years later, I am starting again and properly this time. I am going to make manageable and sustainable changes to my lifestyle in order to finally achieve the weight, size and peace of mind that I have been longing for all of my life.

I have always struggled with self-discipline. This might sound like something anyone could say of themselves but for me it goes a step further as it isn’t just about getting on with things that I don’t want to do or might be unpleasant. I also find it very difficult to motivate myself to do things that I do want to do. It takes up so much of my effort and concentration to do ordinary daily tasks, such as get out of bed, wash and go to work (let alone actually being productive at work), that my health, sleep, fitness and eating habits have always been tossed by the wayside.

This means that I constantly feel like I am living my life trapped in a cage, never able to complete or achieve anything no matter how much I want to (I have always had a reputation for starting things and not following through). It is time for this to stop and for my life to take a new path to success and fulfilment of my destiny and purpose!

I know that it is important, during this challenge, for me to remain accountable to other people. I have tried various strategies in the past, but they have all failed as even that could not provide the required level of external motivation. For this reason, I am turning to what I think is an extreme version of accountability and am going to share my trials, tribulations and successes with anyone who might want to read this and then I cannot escape!

I have always been very good at hiding under the radar and so now I am (rather scarily) coming out of the shadows and into the light!

I need to lose 101lb to reach my ideal weight and so I am going to post once a week on a Saturday with new reason to lose weight (so the quicker I lose weight, the fewer reasons I will need to think of). This blog is going to document my journey to true freedom of mind and body.

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